First entry for my 2nd baby

Dear baby,

Mummy is about 20 weeks pregnant. I am due to give birth to you on 28 November 2008. Mummy do feel guilty for not being excited to have you. Of course I do love you but times are tough. We are facing a lot of problems at the moment such as financial and maid problems. You are a very well behaved baby. You did not cause mummy to be sick that much. Alhamdulillah. You are quiet baby. I can already feel your movements at times. Your elder brother Fa'iz Hilman is only 23 mths old now. His 2nd birthday is in 2 weeks time. I believe your brother loves you very much. Sometimes he will kiss mummy's tummy and laugh at mummy's tummy. He even put his legs across mummy's tummy as if he is hugging you. At times your brother can be very naughty. He will kick simultaneously at mummy's tummy as if he is playing soccer with you.

At the moment mummy & Fa'iz is very sick. I will try my best to talk to you often once mummy is well. We are down with runny nose for almost 2weeks. We went to the doctor a few times because it just get worst. As for you .. you are doing fine. Your size is just nice for 20 weeks baby. In 3 weeks time we will be doing a detail scan on you. I really hope everything is fine. Mummy did not go to the diabeties doctor earlier because we are facing financial problems. Our gynea Dr KK Chow is very worried for us. Dr Koh our diabeties doctor is trying his best to help us. I really leave it to Allah about our conditions. I believe you are a strong baby and Allah will help you to be a perfect baby. If anything goes wrong with you .. mummy can never forgive myself. Mummy just don't have the energy to be cheerful. I always feel tired but I must work so that you will be a hardworking baby and a strong baby. And mummy salary can be used for check ups and whatever is necessary for you. I just want to hug you & your brother to give me strength. I really need you both. Mummy always believe whatever attitude mummy having right now, you will have the attitude too. Just like your brother. While mummy was pregnant, mummy tried my best to endure tiredness and do not give up. Now your brother have this attitude. He always try his best to endure and he never gives up easily.

As for you, I believe you will be a well behaved baby because you don't give mummy problems for the past 20 weeks, you will be out spoken because mummy is more outspoken ever since I am pregnant, you may have tan skin because mummy like to eat & drink dark coloured food, you may not be a good eater because mummy always lazy to eat, I think you will like snacks because mummy prefer to eat snacks than rice and there's so much things to type out. Mummy craves for steak at eatzi, I just love to eat sambal udang with kuah lemak, I ate a lot of durian which I usually don't, lately I love pineapples and sour and sweet preservatives & drinks and mummy realise lately mummy loves to write. I will write long journals about our daily life. Maybe I am more expressive.

Anyway.. hang on there. Be strong. Only take in good food which mummy eats. If mummy eat junk food don't take any of it. Mummy stop typing for now. I love you. I can't wait to see you eventhough mummy is afraid of giving birth again. Your presence in this world will mean a lot to mummy. Your will help to save mummy and daddy love.

I love you my dear baby...